A strong front was what I acted in front of others . I never like people knowning that I'm sad or maybe just because I dont wanna let others worry . You never know how much I'm going thru and how much I wanted someone who really care. Someone who would put 101% of effort in to care for me. but such person doesnt exsist anymore. But without anyone to be there I'll be stronger. and YES i'll do it without any friends help . (:

I'm at fault for telling such stuff. I know you must be thinking that I said it all out cause of revenge. If you think 7 years is not enough for you to know me then It'll be a goodbye to this friendship. My main motive was to let you know he isnt a good guy! If you think it doesn't hurt when Tx told you everything then you're wrong. Till now I'm still not over it. Why must it be you? If you think I carrying well now then you're wrong. You never know how much it hurt when Qian came and blame me. When betrayed Edmond. Main motive was to not let you stop lingering over such a guy. When I need someone, Pohleung didn't even message me, How could I confide to him, Tx came and argue with me, Yv was busy watching her show. You know how the feeling was. Friends arent there for me, Boy-friends arent there for me too. What I should I do ?

i miss you. miss you. miss you.
When I dance all the faces seems to look like you.
When I saw your friend I told him I miss you.
Why do I keep thinking of you?
Everybody ask me not to, but why I keep doing it .
I miss calling you Bee, miss hugging your pregant tummy.
Miss seeing your stupid bagey.
i cant carry on typing anymore, real tired. Still waiting for your call .

I've decided to put my life back together. I know it's hard to do it without you, but I know I can.
You are my life, I'll never stop loving.
I dont want you to destroy my life so I'll carry on happily without you while waiting for you to be back.
It hurts so much, so much that no words could explain how hurt I'm feeling.
Thou it hurts but I'll still live happily.
I don't wish that everybody will blame you, so I've got to continue being happy.
I still remember the sacrifice I've made for you, carrying the KOIs from tamp all the way to 85 to give you.
Buying the cream for you, How much you wants me to change I'm willing to.
Willing to give up everything for you.
I remember I once told you, you'll be my last. I mean it. I really do.
I miss everything you did for me, buying hello kitty's biscult and chocolate for me when I had no appetite to eat.
Came all the way down to my area to look for me.
Getting jealous of me saying other guys good looking.
Getting jealous of a silly message.
Singing songs to me.
Thou it hurt alot but I know I cant show it to you, wouldnt want to stress you that much.
Now I'll be just a friend, caring for you.
Just like this I'll be contented enough already.
1604, stx. <3

Why do I love you so much, I ask myself.
You told me you wants to be with me forever, but you left.
You ask me never to leave you, I didn't.
I put down my pride, did you pride down your's.
Do you still remember we said we would get married?
You said I was a gift from heaven to you but did you treasure?
You said I'll never be alone, but now alone.
Hand in hand we walked side by side everyday.
I am I too naive to believe every words you said?
I choose to change but did you choose to accept?
You said if I'm happy you'll be happy, but now I'm sad, are you ?
You said you only got me in your heart but now I'm not.
You said always remember that you'll always love me, but what happen now?
I made the sacrifice that I always went down to your workplace just to accompany you.
That I did the chores when I'm allergied to dust.
You said you would work it out, but did you?
You said I'm your shooting star, that's why you love me so much.
You said you wouldnt want me to leave, but you choose to leave first.
I'm sorry I couldnt give up, I'll still love you.
I'll still wait.
Always loving, Always waiting.
STX

It don't really matters anymore

Every girl deserve every right to be loved and dote on.

Just like, How I wish you would sent me home to my doorstep daily.

How I wish we could take a bus home everyday.

How I wish you just sent a little sweet message daily.

How I wish you would request to wake me up instead of me waking you up.

How I wish when I wake up I'll see your messages.

How I wish you wouldn't say single's the best, cause I wanna be with you.

Hey! Peeps (:

Busy with work and stuff so I couldn't blog much.

Everybody see life in a different point of view but what I think is that you don't have to be pretty, rich or whatsoever to be happy.

Small little gesture will just make me feel contented.

Replying on the anonymous comment:

Thanks for your opinion.

I've got true friends, they are ugly but they was there for me.

I've also got pretty babes, but were they there for me?

& If you do wanna tell me all this can just simply call me.

Sent me a message in facebook. I don't wish you that you're continuing being such a coward hiding behind the computer and comment.

Anyway, Thanks!